"All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, and I promise you, something great will come out of it..." ~Benjamin Mee We Bought A Zoo ♥

This is something I have majorly struggled with almost all of my life. Society today has created such an impossible standard to live up to, girls and woman of all ages produce horrible ways of trying to solve the situation of wanting to be accepted...
Cutting, purging, starvation. It is all very sad to think about as well as think of doing. That's why I urge all of you to love yourselves deeply no matter what you look like on the outside. God loves each and every one of you and I end this with a parting Bible verse that says....
 
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3 Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. 4 You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God."
1 Peter 3:3-4

~Harry~
 
All I could feel was the pulsating blood oozing out of my stomach, and the lingering uneasiness of the parting words I had heard from Karson.

"We... we ne-ee ta oo back.." I frustratingly cried, the lips unable to form the words I needed. I couldn't leave her behind! Those 'things' could go after her, and I might never see her again.
 
The thought of losing her was unbearable, and drifting tears slid down my face and on to the hand of Louis who held my hand firmly.
 
"We can't Harry. Your hurt. Besides, she was no where in sight when we came. I checked." Liam's hushed words sent uneasiness rippling through my spine, and it made me long more for the touch of her. Karson.....
 
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We got to the hospital where nurses and doctors rushed around, tending to the wound. They ran a couple scans to make sure no major organs or arteries were severed or pierced. They gave me some medication and soon the bleeding subsided so they replaced the bandage that was plastered with blood, after fishing out the bullet.
 
After about an hour of bed rest, the doctor came back in with test results.
 
"Good evening Mr. Styles." The doctor kindly said.
 
I always hated when people called me by my last name. I preferred Harry. It made me more..... me.
 
I tried to give a firm nod, but I could only muster a tilt of the head.
 
The boys silently sat precariously anywhere around the room; anywhere where they could fit more specifically. It was pretty tight in here.
 
"Well, I'm happy to tell you that nothing was damaged except for your stomach, with which is a slow but steady heal. You won't be able to eat solids for a couple days, but besides that your fine. Your bleeding was pretty heavy though, and without that bandage, you would have lost a lot of blood. And I noticed the wound had been cleaned recently. That accuracy could have only been done a mere professional. Who did it?"
 
I stared puzzlingly at the boys, and I began to read Liam's lips...
 
They were saying, "Lie."
 
As much as i hated to disrespect authority and lie, I knew Liam had a good reason behind any wrong deed.
 
"I... I can't really remember actually. I think it was a man who happened to be standing by who was a medic."
 
"And you say that all you lads were just in a park at dusk and someone shot at you?" The doctor prodded, looking at me precariously.
 
"Yeah, it was pretty stupid to be in the park without a body guard." Liam quickly scolded not only himself but all of us. He was pretending.
 
All of them played along and nodded their heads,mumbling incoherent things under their breathes.
 
"Well Mr. Styles, hopefully you can rest up some tonight, and then the police will come in in the morning." He gave a half wave, then walked out, shutting the door behind him.
 
As soon as the door shut, Niall burst out,"What's going on. Harry do you know something?"
 
All pairs of questioning eyes landed on me.
 

"What happened?" Louis demanded, staring into my eyes.
 
"I don't know, it all happened so fast. I was driving Karson home when all of the sudden she starts freaking out about this van behind us. She was about to tell me something when all of the sudden, the van rammed us off the rode and almost into the water.
"These guys get out and Karson is literally freaking out majorly when she tells me we need to run. So we hop out and I'm running and about into some woods, when I hear shouting. And that' when I realize Karson wasn't behind me. She was still back with maniacs screaming and fighting with this one guy.
But as soon as she gets knocked to the ground and about killed, I run in screaming and that's when I'm shot. I'm so stupid, I could have helped save her if I didn't run in like a wild ban gee. Then all I can remember is laying on the ground, hearing shouting and fighting. So I close my eyes for a few moments. Then, I open them to a beautiful voice and see an angel." The boys began to heartily laugh, thinking I was joking, but I seriously thought i had died.
 
"But it was just Karson. She was beautiful." I murmured, to low that the boys couldn't hear me.
 
"What?" Zayn questioned, leaning in, trying to make out the words I had just spoken.
 
"Nothing." I replied.
 
"So is their more?" Niall questioned fervently.
 
"Well, she bandaged me up and..." I almost told them about her talking to me, but then decided to keep it to myself. She probably didn't even know I was lucid enough to hear each one she uttered, but I was. I watched her as she cried over me, with such sadness I almost kissed her.
 
"Andddddddd.....???" Louis drawled out.
 
"And I blacked out until you guys came." I easily lied.
 
"So you didn't hear where she was going or why?" Liam asked.
 
"No, sadly I didn't." I painfully replied, wishing I was with her, protecting her instead of being in this stupid hospital bed with a dumb wound. She needed me, and I needed her.
 
And no matter what the circumstance, I was going to find her, no matter how hard it was going to be. She needed me.
 
But most of all, I needed HER.